When I was a kid Toys R Us had a song that went something like "I don't want to grow up I want to be a Toys R Us kid." That was literally my aspiration. I was never that kid who was like "I can't wait to grow up so I can do *insert silly kid thing*" or "I can't wait to grow up so I can move out!" My brother of course burst my bubble by telling me one day I will have to grow up and it's stupid to sing that song.I knew I was going to grow up, I knew one day I would become an adult, I just didn't want to.
Now I am the exact thing I did not want to be. I am somehow... a grown up *insert bawling noise*. I have my own place, I have a real person job, I not only bake but cook as well, I pay bills other than a cellphone, I have co-workerks, I drive a car and make paymenta for said car, and above all, I have insurance, through before mentioned job. Yep, that's when you know shit gets real, when your job gives you insurance.
Sure I play Pokemon Go, what Millennial doesn't? I also still get crushes and giggly around guys I like like a teenager, but in every sense of the word, I am an adult. I remember when I was at the gas station this little boy kept saying "excuse me ma'am" over and over again. I was thinking damn this kid is annoying, where in the hell is this grown woman to help this kid out?! So, I started looking around to help this little kid find this adult "ma'am". That's when it happened, I looked down at the kid and he said, "ma'am will you please hand me the silverware." I was stunned for a second, this kid was about ten, I had fifteen years on him sure, but that doesn't mean I'm a ma'am. A ma'am wears a broach and drives a Buick. I wear shorts and go on hikes. Anyway, I handed this kid the plasticware and asked him if he needed two he said no. To add insult to injury, he said "thank you ma'am." I started looking for my cane.
A few years ago I remember thinking in the 90s I thought people in their 20s were adults. I remember being like 11 or 12, thinking at 20, I would have graduated college, and lived with a boyfriend who I would hide when my parents came to visit. At 17 I thought by the age I am now, I would be married with a kid and probably another one baking.
Ha! That's all I have to day! Ten years later and I am more single than I was then, trying to come up with plans on how to get a date with the hot guy at the gym who flirts with me and looks at every girl who walks in and out of the gym (a real winner I know).
To be honest, I'm not a big fan of adulting or being single lol. But, I am happy with where I am. I am supper happy to be a financially independent woman who can provide for herself. My parents always taught me to depend on no one other than myself and that's exactly what I am doing. So score one for Megan.
Adulting,
Megan
