I love you. You broke my heart. I hope you can be happy because that’s all I would ever want for you.

Other than a cold hearted "BYE" (understandable?) that's the last thing he said/texted me.

The second day gets easier I see. I din't wake up and burst into tears the second the paste hit my toothbrush, I waited much later. I don't feel sad or jumbled, I just feel bummed out we won't be friends, I know, I asked this summer.

While driving to the movies, (it was our thing) I was thinking about how last night I prayed that he will find the perfect woman for him, but I was wishing all these horrible things, so I hope my prayers are answered before my wishes.


Hope
-She makes him miserable
-She makes him end his friendship with his crazy ass best friend (apparently she thought he was in love with her, stupid high school shit)
-She loves makeup (he hates it)
-She's the ugliest bitch EVER
-She's never amazing as I was
-He'll always think of me
-He bring me up and chance gets
-He gets his shit together and calls me as a better person- but that's impossible because that would mean he's changing for me and not because he wants to. I know him, it would be for me

Pray
-She loves his dog as much as I have loved my first puppy
-They want the same number of kids (we'd fight all the time)
-She loves any artist's concert as much as him
-They share the same religious views
-She loves to drink beer
-She loves him like I did at the peak of my love for him
-He is everything she ever wanted
-She is PERFECT for him because he fucking deserves it
-His grandmother loves her before meeting her based solely on all the amazing things he has told her
-She hates talking on the phone like him
-They can sit on the couch and have a better time being in the house more than we did
-His best friend and her get along
-She's highly intelligent
-She drives well and doesn't hate when he tells her how to drive
-His smacking doesn't bother her
-They work well and are amazing together
-She's okay with his lack of family connection (his choice)
-She doesn't pick fights just because
-She is beautiful inside and out

I want him to have the most wonderful life possible, if that is with or without me there.